Silent Dreams...

This song is silly...

2004-04-28T07:42:56Z

Cornet:
I know that you're out there and I'm waiting for you
Cornet is my name and I'm a puppeteer too
With my puppet friends, there's nothing that we can't do
They are there to help me make my dreams come true
And once you get to know them, they just might help you too
And all the puppets in the world
Will help me find my way to you
I know that you're out there and I'm waiting for you

Kururu:
There she goes again, she's so in love

Cornet:
So?

Kururu:
As if lightning struck her from above

Cornet:
But it did!

Kururu:
I love you my prince
You are my true love
Cornet won't you stop your silly dreaming please

Cornet:
That's not true!
Can't you see?
I'm just trying to make my dream come true!

Kururu:
Dressed like that?

Cornet:
I've done everything, a girl supposed to
I take a bubble bath even wash behind my ears (Oh!)
All the bubbles tickle my nose
But they get me squeaky clean
And when I'm done I'm looking beautiful

Kururu:
Cornet, you are a silly girl
You must look further than just by appearances to see
Cornet, are you following this?
What's important is what's inside of you

Cornet:
What's inside of me?

Kururu:
Don't you understand what I am saying to you
Look inside yourself and you will find out what is true (hmm...)
You must be courageous and true to your heart (Aha!)
It will make you happy when you know just where to start (OK!)

Cornet:
I see it's what's inside of me

Kururu:
Yes, what's inside of you!

Cornet:
Someday I'll find my love
He'll be the one for me
I will be waiting patiently
Until he comes

Kururu:
I told you don't wait, you take the initiative!

Cornet:
Now I remember before myself (Yeah, that's it!)
I know I'll find him and he will be man of my dreams

Both:
We'll share our lives as one
Until the end of time
Someday our hearts will beat as one
Yey!

Entitled; Heartbreak, my child...

2004-04-27T08:54:13Z

Heartbreak is the emotion that screams from the bottom of your heart
It’s the ache you can’t send away, nestled under your pillow
Everything on the exterior is sweet but underneath lies a buried suffering
Your cry for help is unanswered as the pain makes you breathless

Each day it grows and grows on itself gaining even more power
It runs through your veins like water expanding to every crack and every tear
Sunny days become stormy nights in the twinkle of an eye
For you my child, apathy is the very best companion you could have

A hand held out for you offering you tidings of optimism and promise
Slapped away by the pain deep down in the depths of your soul
The torment of being discarded brings you to tears at night
But they don’t care how much you suffer or how much you’re fraught

An empty shell is all they see – empty feelings living inside of you
Manikin of your own solitude and slave to your genetic composition
Incapable of hiding from the reality that is your heart, you run away
The tunnel of heartache welcomes you with open arms, my child

This is neither a sad poem nor something to channel my pain but simply inspiration gathered after watching Never Been Kissed... yes... you heard me right... DREW BARYMOORE IS FUCKING HOT!! TITTIES YOOOO!! BOING BOING!!! -SLOBBER-

A shot...

2004-04-17T09:08:14Z

Tracing your name in the window
Not even realizing the act
I try to hold back the tears
But I still love you, that's a fact

My mind is still numb with pain
Sometimes it seems impossible to bear
I may not pick up the phone when you call
But trust me, I still care...

Love is a tragedy waiting to happen
We went for it and took that chance
Our lives were in that shitty place
Yet we sometimes found time for romance

Those three words seemed like enough
We were kids then, how foolish could we be
It takes more than 'I Love You'

Ahhh, fuck it, I can't do anymore....

Decisions...

2004-04-14T15:26:43Z

Well, I've made a decision to just get my GED and move on with my life. This high school crap just ain't doing good. I'm not motivated enough, to locked up with my own dreams to focus here, so I'm going to end this and see how I fair at VC or some other place. Hopefully I'll get a vehicle soon whether it's my mom's truck or my 240sx :) But I'll have a vehicle none the less. Anyways, I'm sleepy...

~robert~

To Drift

2004-04-13T20:35:34Z

To Drift

Peddle pressure is strong
The stretch in front is long
Turn the radio to your favorite song
Into 1st now, lets get it on!

Heel. Toe. 1, 2, 3, your now in the lead
Engine racing, adrenaline pumping
Hitting sixty, now you've done it
There's no turning back now, it's all on you

First turn ahead, foot off the gas
Drop into 2nd, counter, clock, slide
Heel. Toe. Push it to third, gas it up
Graze the wall, you did it, you passed the test

Motion behind, keeping your line
Light in front, don't let it bother you
Focus on the goal, and you win
Don't faulter, cause that's a sin

Turn left. Turn right. Drift. Drift.
You feel the car in your hands
You feel the wind in your hair
Look ahead, the finish like, its right there

Zoom! People cheer, you win, have a beer.

Don't know where that one came from... boredom to the max baby, yeah!

Tears of Ice

2004-04-13T18:12:20Z

Tears of Ice - Inspired by Stratovarius

A gentle tear running down your cheek
Frozen in time, I'm helpless... I'm weak
What made it this way, why is it so messed up?
I'm sorry, here's some water, in your favorite cup

Your tears tear me apart, pain my heart
I can't stand to listen, it hurts to much
Though I don't want to leave you, I never want to be apart
This outcome was your fault, you made it this way

Tear of ice fall from your eyes, no more lies
I just want the truth, is that to much to ask?
Tell me your feelings, don't condem me for my past
Be yourself, be true, no more tears...

I'll wipe your fears away
So don't be scared
I will always love you
Till the very last day

A kiss is like a thousand words so pure
It is the remedy, it must be the cure
You cry and cry and cry... when will it stop?
I can't take it, please...

The sheets are soaked, covered in ice
To make you happy I gave it all, whats the price?
Your still unhappy, just like always...
I took the chance... but I guess I failed

You said everything would be fine, you lied
You said we would last forever, you lied
You said you would always love me, you lied
Did you lie when you said I made you happy?

A tear down my cheek, look, I'm weak
It's happening to me, as it happened to you...
Oh wait, it's just a mirror, it's always been me
I never knew, my own pain, I didn't have a clue

Like ice the tears pain me, make me shiver
Not a thing I can do, looking in this mirror
Maybe I'll just stand here, till someone hears my tears
How long will that be...

Pain...

2004-04-13T16:21:24Z

Three little words, mean everything to me
Your plain and simple, way to carefree
Those lips of yours, I can read em well
I love you, can't you tell?

Those things you said to me, make my heart race
But now they are gone, dissapeared without a trace
Can you bring them back please, it hurts to much
I love you, can't you tell?

Our time together, we could have spent it better
We fought, we yelled and we screamed, seemed like a dream
But it was all to real, and now its to late
I love you, can't you tell?

Your loving embrace, I miss it so much
The smell of your hair, the feel of your touch
When will the pain stop, I hate this feeling...
I love you, can't you tell?

Heaven wont cure my pain, the pain of being alone
It hurts, feeling how I do, sitting at home
I wish it could change, the way it was..
I love you, can't you tell?

Can't you tell, through all the screaming and pain?
This love, it won't go away, but it's not the same
How can it change, this has gone on for to long...
A never ending dream is what it seems

I love you
I love you, can't you tell?
It's plain to see, your hold on me
I wish the hold was stronger... more real

Maybe if you were here now, my pain would heal...

hyatsu @ 2004-04-09T23:12:00

2004-04-10T07:52:12Z

Ring.
Ring.
Ring.

The silent noise of a phone.
The silent noise of promise.
Do you pick it up?
Do you let it ring, silently?

Zzzzzt.
Zzzzzt.
Zzzzzt.

Gently vibrating in your pocket.
Keep walking with your friends.
Do you reach for it?
Do you let it continue to buzz?

Connection. Ring. Click. Speak.
Your voice is gentle and sweet.
The sound of your laugh is divine.
Will I get to see you one last time?
I call and call but you don't listen.
For the sound of your voice....

Where when why and who?
Do you accept the choice...
Joy or sorrow, it's in your hands,
Pick up the phone and Ring.

Smile or frown, it all comes down.
Simplicity is at work here.
Yes or No, which is it?
Can you make the choice?
Do you keep playing the same game?
Is happiness to horrid to bear?

Silence.
Silence.
Silence.

Do you hear it? No you don't.
Look down and see for yourself.
Poof! Smoke. Nothing there.
You made your choice, take it all to bare...
One second to late is to long enough.
The phone is gone and your out of luck.

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Whooo, got inspiration... don't know where it came from but hey... I ain't complaining. Life has some ups and downs, so what. Fuck life, I'm gonna do what I want and when I want. Kate, get ahold of me or I'll call you and you better pick up >_< :) Anyways, peace out world!
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~robert~

LA sucks...

2004-04-08T19:06:33Z

Ugh... had to get up so early... to leave LA... then I just went back to bed when I got home. I'll most likely be playing Lineage II all day so that means the phone will be busy. If you need to get ahold of me just go online or call one of my friends and have them let mek now. Anyways, back to the utter bleakness that is my life, peace out guys.

~robert~

holy shit...

2004-04-02T08:52:38Z

Nephuxs: \m/??
AzuSlaveX: \m/
Nephuxs: oh
Nephuxs: umm
Nephuxs: metal?
Nephuxs: why metal
AzuSlaveX: \m/ o.o \m/
Nephuxs: w
Nephuxs: t
AzuSlaveX: just something i do when shit is good
Nephuxs: f
Nephuxs: oh
Nephuxs: in that kase
Nephuxs: (^)**(^)
Nephuxs: wtf
AzuSlaveX: ROFL
Nephuxs: birthday cakes
AzuSlaveX: hahaha
Nephuxs: dammit
AzuSlaveX: im laughing so hard...
Nephuxs: i didnt want that
AzuSlaveX: HAHAH
Nephuxs: why???
Nephuxs: lol
AzuSlaveX: the cakes
Nephuxs: lol
AzuSlaveX: that's so great
Nephuxs: it was an accident
AzuSlaveX: ur like, in that case... mmm cake!
Nephuxs: LOL
Nephuxs: LMAO
Nephuxs: NOW I GET IT
Nephuxs: lol
AzuSlaveX: dude, i cant stop laughing
Nephuxs: -=crying=-

Hahaha... still laughing... XD

Boredom...

2004-04-02T08:07:12Z

Over and over again our lives cross
Two as one and one as two we live
in the void of eachother we stay
our precious hearts but have to give

path this way or that which do i choose?
Either way its the same what do i lose..
stalling, never moving i drift along
sitting here in the dark playing the same song

meaningless lives share our own covered in black
we give and give but we dont take back
set aside your emotions for they wont help you
did it ever cross you, the emptiness? it was the first clue

alone, bare and dead, three words of truth
they haunt us all, to our final days, as life
make ur choice wisely, a game of tetris...
fill the screen to much and its game over...

negated self-indulgence is ever so wise
the flicker of the flame is ever so soft
do what you must, you wont get a second chance
true happiness is amiss, grab it by the waist and dance.

So, it comes down to this...

2004-03-28T04:40:31Z

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The Flash vs. Goku
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Here we have the cosmic question at hand. Who can beat their meat the fastest? Goku or The Flash? I'm here today to answer that question.

First we have Goku; a primitive newborn sent to the planet Earth as a means to destroy it. Shit hits the fan and he loses his will to destroy and, humorously enough, wishes to protect it. Score one for communism! Anyways. He is one strong son of a bitch (sources have not discovered if he is indeed the product of said ape and female dog) and obviously needs a pretty big piece of meat to compliment the man's ever growing strength. So, back to the task at hand. Goku, the super power of the universe and the last hope of planet Earth. Seems kind of sad that Earth has to rely on some guy who may or may not be half dog, but hey, I didn't make the rules. He married this bimbo named Chi Chi, obviously named after some drunken incident at the spearmint rhino... makes me wonder bout where these chicks get their names. She is always mad at him and throwing shit and whatever it is hellish wives like her do so Goku must beat it alot since he obviously is to busy saving the universe from shemales and over-zealous androids and the occasional one-armed henchman. This guy can blow up a whole planet if he wanted to so think about it... how fast does he jerk it? The phrase "jerking it will make you go blind" is taken to a whole new level with him. You get hit by his wad and you can pretty much say your prayers cause you be one fuxored n00b. In essence he jerks it so fast that it appears he isn't jerking at all, so you just witness this bulging cock that ends up ripping your head off your body from a 300,000psi stream of straight super-saiyan-semen... what a way to go.

Secondly we have The Flash. The marvel super hero with speed faster than the speed of light... damn that's pretty fast if I say so myself. I'd still whoop his ass in my 240sx... but we will save that conversation for a whole new day. Anyways, this guy, somehow, gained the ability of speed beyond our comprehension and could skull fuck wonder-woman before she knew what was dripping from the lid of her eye's... now THAT's some skill right there. This guy obviously doesn't get many chicks, as most marvel super hero's are to gay looking to attract da woman anyways, so of course he beats it atleast 13 times a day, and goes that extra 1 on sunday to make himself feel like a rebel. His rooms must be like a god damn spider cave... sticky and dark... poor guy, prolly runs so fast to hide from light so no one will see his massive, bulging boner under his spandex panties he stole from his neighboors dresser. This guy is one sick mofo...

So, my point? I totaly beat off faster than both of these amateurs...

~robert~